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• My research partner deciding that he didn't like our thesis at the last minute and going on to rewrite what he believes our presentation should look like, while doing a disjointed communication dance with me on what he now would like me to do despite the presentation and format and thesis being my construct from the beginning, thus putting me between a rock and my ego and sense of conscience that tells me I should not punch him in the face if I really want to reduce my stacks of schoolwork. ...I have less than a week to decide if I want to swallow my pissiness and just go with the flow, because our presentation has been rescheduled to next Tuesday. The day before our final. Hurrah.


• Similarly, my body physically shutting down, thus mentally shutting down = me not having the energy to do basic tasks and homework. Or rolling out of bed and going to classes. Tuesday was me feeling so sick and tired (and my "partner's" hoity-toity emails/texts to me on that day were NOT helping) that I did NOT even get OUT of bed until eleven. Followed by not doing much other than lounge around, half-awake.


• Currently, this puts me even more behind in terms of research papers, presentation preparation, and studying. Yeah...


• I still haven't contacted my ethics professor on how I personally decided to drop the online class mid-semester.


• I still owe $35 in college library fines orz W/O that money I cannot get access to my grades. Lord, my mother will be so happy.


• Speaking of my mother: I'm not sure what more in her life is stressing her to the point of slamming dishes, utensils, doors, tables and screaming at me almost incomprehensibly while calling me various obscenties over small issues like how my right foot (which naturally falls inward toward my body when I walk, making my gait a little odd to look at for my mother, apparently) bothers her and how I'M A HORRIBLE NOT-HUMAN BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT TO LEARN HOW TO CORRECT MY STEP PATTERNS, SINCE ALL MODELS APPARENTLY WALK THAT WAY OFF THE CATWALK SO THUSLY I MUST BE DOING THIS ON PURPOSE TO AGGRAVATE HER. Like, wtf.
  
  And today, how my average studying hours of 1-2 hours a day for three fjucking classes is hardly enough since SHE SPENT HER WHOLE CHILDHOOD STUDYING TO GET TO AMERICA SO WHY DON'T I JUST DROP THE FUCK OUT OF SCHOOL AND WORK AT WALMART INSTEAD (said to me x∞ already). So, yes. Not sure why the hell she's so agitated right now and why she enjoys taking that frustration out on her daughter in typical "tyrannical two's"-fashion. Days like these, I just want to move the fuck out even if I end up dying on the streets.


• And Lauren, as much as I love her, gets angry FAR too easily. I think of her as a very good friend, and I know and love her family, so watching her fight with her family on small, insignificant issues (like closing her door or not putting clothes away) kinda tears at me :/ She has a love/hate issue with too many things (especially people) without even knowing/wanting to understand them, and her level of patience is often nonexistent. I want to have a friendship where I'm not counseling, because therapy is a different type of interaction, but I can't help but worry over Lauren, her relationships, and how much stress comes from our being friends...


• Lastly, the lack of fresh berries/a good cherry orchard that won't take your limbs for collateral here in Utah. I'm revising my dessert list as I'm having difficulties using them up immediately. Pulled out some freaking expensive mini-cartons of blackberries/raspberries today, and had to sift through them to dump the mold-covered, worm-infested bits. Was forced to throw away an entire carton since I found little maggots orz; Berries: frozen > fresh < time.

• Have a handful of leftover strawberries and blackberries. The blackberries will be used in a twist on my usual sour cream coffee cake, something like this Blackberry Coffee Cake recipe on What's Cooking America, if I don't use my usual recipe with minor adjustments :)The strawberries will likely to be used as topping for the Buttermilk Pudding (or, from what I've heard is an alternate name (which I love ♥), "Russian Cream"), as I don't think I have enough to make mini-tarts or sliders...


• So, not making any raspberry tarts this week, as I have no raspberries. However, I do plan on making them in the future. Why: to learn how to make puff pastry.


• Triple Berry Crisp is also out, as I have no more berries... Might possibly make a priority dessert list and put this recipe at the top.


• Chocolate Mousse and Chai Ice Cream are still up. Why: BECAUSE IT'S MOUSSE AND ICE CREAM THAT'S WHY. Also, learning how to make ice cream without an ice cream maker, and using up the still-full container of cream in our fridge.


• Apple pie is also still on, as I did promise that one. Will probably start making crusts sometime later today, when I get home.

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optimistic

• Berry Cobbler With Coconut Walnut Topping


• Jacques Pépin's Fresh Raspberry Tart


• Buttermilk Pudding


• Chai Ice Cream


• Chocolate Mousse


• Triple Berry Crisp


• Apple Pie, using Simply Recipe's Perfect Pie Crust, Lattice

TIP OF THE DAY #1: guys, when you get spices/seasoning (or even cereals and pastas), see if your grocer's has them in bulk.

For the Chai Ice Cream recipe, I couldn't find all the spices I needed at Winco (needed them whole), so I ended up going to Whole Foods later today: I felt silly only getting one star anise, ten whole white peppercorns, and two cardamom pods, but it came out at .

Good way of getting whole spices for super cheap if you're only experimenting with a recipe. (Especially if you only have some $2 in your bank account orz;) Spices (esp. whole) can get really expensive.

TIP OF THE DAY #2: if you don't mind NOT following the recipe to a T, go for a suitable (read: more accessible and less expensive) substitute for one or more ingredients.*

*Ask the OP of a recipe if you're not sure, or read comments/reviews to find out what others have done. Don't be afraid to experiment!

Even an pre-amateur "chef" like myself has to do this once in a while. The ultimate goal here is to be able to whip up whatever, with whatever is in your fridge and/or pantry. I was looking for a vanilla bean for one of the aforementioned recipes, but the only one Whole Foods had in store was one bean for $6.50. Uh, no. Whole vanilla beans cost an obscene amount, no matter where you go. Vanilla extract, as pointed out by Garrett of Simply Recipes, is a perfectly fine substitute.

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Google Earth Me:

United States, Salt Lake City, Terrace Heights Rd, 3760-3898

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determined

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