What. A. Story. I did not want to put it down and I was even sad when it was over, I could have kept reading. Crystal shares a raw, honest, at times heartbreaking story of love, loss, grief, finding herself and her voice. It’s been a long time since I was so moved by a book. The parts outlining the pain of having her worth wrapped up in her appearance, resonated and shook me to core. I finished this book with tears in my eyes and a new perspective on self worth, self love, and overcoming it all. Aside from that, she illustrated the complexity of mansion life and living with Hugh Hefner. There’s a story Crystal tells about the lovebirds kept at the mansion, and if it isn’t a metaphor for life there, the women, how disposable and replaceable to Hef they were- I don’t know what is. My heart broke for Crystal many times throughout this book, but seeing the woman she has become, her self awareness, her honesty, her empathy and vulnerability; you can’t help but root for her, her healing journey and her future success.