Something inside my head is screaming telling me not to talk telling me to just SHUT UP to just not say anything... my dog sits in the tall grass in front of me and stares at my unintellegent brother as he throws things at me and ... i miss brandon when im with him everythings different i just wish he could take me away from here and save me... everyone i talk to wouldnt want to share their journals thier personal thoughts with anyone but i dont i wouldnt and i dont it doesnt matter what it says in my journal or what im thinking cuz im not scared to let people know what i think or feel unless its happy... why is it that i cant let people know i love them am i really that scared of getting hurt?... Brandon wouldnt do that... right?.... i wrote this in my real journal today a kind of "thinking out loud" things i just let all my thoughts come out at the same time... i cant tell if i am sad or if im just bored adn tired of living my life.... how i wish i could leave and never come back.... life cant be this hard... can it?... i hope m7y life gets better, please dont leave me brando... im not sure if i can take that kind of pain any time soon... or even later in my life...

wow theres alot of people on this community...

anyways have you ever felt that someone in your family like TOTALLY hates you and wants you dead....
well my brother hes not the smartest person in the world all the drugs have curupted his mind so now he has the maturity of a five year old and the intelligence of a tweleve year old but any ways yesterday i was sitting at the computer doing my shit when he walks over and puts a plastic bag over my head and holds it there i was like holy shit but i ripped it so he didnt get to kill me... like i would let him have that kida of satifation... well anyways i just you know think its weird that my own brother attempted to kill me and then walks upstairs and tells my mom that im on crack what a fucking bastard... hes seventeen just so you know but

anyways if you cant STAND your sibling give me a shout out

name: elly
age: umm...15
gender: female
where im at: ....United States

bands: matchbox 20, dave matthews band, tom petty and the heartbreakers, metallica, ozzy, pink floyd, doors,...ill listne to just about anything
style:...i dont really have a specific style
movies: wedding singer, 28 days, die hard 1 & 3, gladiator, well this is the same as music....ill watch anything
describe myself: disturbed
worthiness: im not

sex: um.... well i havent had sex and i dont plan to for a while
drugs/alcohol: dislike the drugs but not the alcohol
my life: devistating

some pics me and my friends took yesterday.

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whatever. i dont need you guys. i can go join another community. sorry to all that i offended by calling someone a fag. and that i was really mad that someone rejected me because i am "immature". ugh. im thirteen, yes. atleast i can admit it. hah. but im not immature like the rest of you. and im not a loser that sits on the computer all day just critisizing people online. i dont need you. im gunna go join another dashboard community. i dont need this stupid place. applications suck. but, hey . . atleast i got 13 comments. go me. =)

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now go and join kiddies!

So I have a myspace. Some of you might have a myspace. we all like myspace friends. add me?

http://profiles.myspace.com/users/4272257

How was everyone's new years? Mine was good. Here are some pictures just to livin this community up a little.

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tisk tisk people...

i see a lot of memebers but not a lot of applications...
lol what's wrong with you people!

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