I really believe that I have no real friends. I can't depend on anyone I know. The one person I can maybe trust is my Ex but he continously breaks my heart. I love him and he doesn't care. I'm tired of hurting so much. And some of my supposed friends are so flaky and flippant. They only care about the next good time. I think I'm a good friend:dependable, caring and loyal. But I hardly get that in return. I don't behave the way I do just so they can return the action but I feel used when I care enough to be on time to things or I actually return a phone call and they just don't. I so tired of this!!!! The one true best friend I had stop hanging out with me(I'm not completely sure why) but she was incredible and every day I miss her. These people are selfish, borish and callious. I am miserable. I am heart-broken. I want to plan something for my birthday this year but I afraid no one will even show up.

Sometimes I feel like I'm lost in this world.... that I belong to a different place and time. Maybe a place where people are bound by their word or they believe in being a good neighbor, confidant, or friend. In the end, I see that most of them don't care if they hurt me or not. I would never be like that to a friend I've made.

Hi,
please check out my songs from 'Sketches from Eddie's Attic' on myspace:

www.myspace.com/nerdkween

You can also purchase a DIY CD for $10.00 shipping included.

PLus, I'm looking to play some shows in Athens in Jan. and Feb. If you have some leads or knows someone who books the clubs/bars, please let me know.

Thanks
nerdkween

Well,
my life is going through so many changes. I'm worried about the friends I'm leaving behind and those who have went ahead of me. I can not put my life on hold anymore. So many wonderful things are waiting for me. I've being through the roughest time I ever had been and survived.

Music is my passion and I feel lucky that I have this incrdible vision to master. I hope through these enteries you will see my love and devotion to this craft.
nerdkween