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  • Jul. 7th, 2008 at 8:37 PM
I was just wondering if anyone can offer me some advice as to how i can start off my fast  as my metabolism is very slow and i need to speed it up.is there any vitamins i should take ?as wel what is the 2468? Im new in here not to ed but these kind of sites.

Okay I'm Postwhore

  • Feb. 14th, 2008 at 10:32 PM
I made 3, (yes 3!) new posts in Thinspo_Queen and I thought I'd let you all know! Click here to go to the community! (P.S. to view the posts, you have to join the community... don't worry theres no application =P ...)

Hi everyone

  • Feb. 12th, 2008 at 8:16 PM
Hi, I'm new to the community, so I figured I'd just start off saying hi.

Here's my stats:

Height: 5'5"
CW: 117
HW: 132-134
LW:107-109
GW 1: 110
GW 2: 98

If you have similar stats or just want to talk, give me a shout =) 
My aim is deepriver105

Feb. 2nd, 2008

  • 10:29 PM
ahhh man, sorry to post twice but i'm feeling so down, all of my freinds are at a party and i could be there but i can't face going, but i know by not going i'm going to feel worse. do any of you ever do somehting even if you know it'll make you feel rubbish :(

hello!

  • Feb. 2nd, 2008 at 1:00 PM

i'm new! This is soo odd for me cos i've never been a part of any group like this before, and i think my freinds would go mad if they new as they no nothing about how much i want to be thinner and how mucked up my eating habits are, lol. anyway i think i will post my stats when i'm a bit less embarresed, i'd say i'm ED NOS but to be honest i don't know what i am! i'm not overweight or underweight officially but i feel disgustingly fat. i tend to try and restrict and i'm generally sucessful for about a weak and then i have massive binges that can last for days, and i mean massive! to the extent where i feel really ill. does anyone else do this? 
anyway it's just gonna be nice to talk to people who can understand and i will try my best to help you all "be happy" lol.
love and hugs Layla :) yay im happy to be here!

TO ALL WHO WANT TO JOIN THE COMMUNITY

  • Feb. 2nd, 2008 at 1:03 AM
All right everyone, this is getting ridiculous and annoying.. For those of you who would like to join our community, you must fill out this form to even be considered. Along with this, I am sending everyone who wants to join the community this message as well. NOTE: if you don't have anywhere to post a comment or message you will NOT receive the message and you will be removed from our list by February 15, 2008.
REMINDER: YOU MUST SEND THE FORM TO BOTH EMAILS LISTED BELOW.

Thank you.

Katie Giattini
(Maintainer)

AS OF AUGUST 24TH, 2007 MEMBERSHIP WILL BE PENDING ONCE THE FORM BELOW IS COMPLETE AND SENT TO THE EMAIL ADDRESS LISTED. IF YOUR FORM/APPLICATION IS NOT COMPLETE, YOU WILL NOT BE ACCEPTED INTO THIS COMMUNITY. IF YOU ARE A MEMBER OF THE COMMUNIT PROANOREXIA, PLEASE FILL OUT THE APPLICATION, AND IN THE "COMMENTS" SECTION, PLEASE AWARE ME YOU ARE A MEMBER.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR COOPERATION.

IF YOU DO NOT SEND IN THE APPLICATION YOUR MEMBERSHIP WILL BE PENDING, AND EVENTUALLY DENIED. THANK YOU.

THIS APPLICATION WILL NOT BE PUBLISHED, SHARED, OR SEEN BY ANYONE BUT CHERI AND KATIE. THIS APPLICATION IS ONLY FOR ADMISSION PURPOSES FOR THE COMMUNITY WANT2BEHAPPY.

-----> The form to be emailed to BOTH Cheri AND Katie....for membership request:
cheryl.hackett@gmail.com AND
catastrophic_feverx12@yahoo.com

DATE(MM/DD/YYYY):
LIVEJOURNAL NAME:
REAL NAME:
AGE:
LOCATION(WHERE YOU LIVE):
HEIGHT:

WEIGHT (IN LBS.):
HIGHEST WEIGHT (IN LBS.):
CURRENT WEIGHT (IN LBS.):
GOAL WEIGHT (IN LBS.):
LOWEST WEIGHT (IN LBS.):

ANA/MIA/BED?:
ARE YOU CLINICALLY DIAGNOSED OR SELF DIAGNOSED?
AIM CHATNAME:
HOW MUCH DO YOU EXERCISE?
DO YOU RESTRICT CALORIES?
DO YOU USE LAXATIVES?
DO YOU PURGE?
HOW LONG HAVE YOU HAD AN EATING DISORDER?

WHAT BENEFIT WOULD THIS COMMUNITY HAVE FOR YOU?
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH A MENTAL DISORDER/ILLNESS?
IF SO… WHAT?
ARE YOU LOOKING FOR A FAST WAY TO LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT?
HOW MUCH WEIGHT DO YOU THINK YOU NEED TO LOSE?

(the questions below are optional....but you get brownie points if you answer them!...)
COMMENTS?:
SUGGESTIONS?:
ANYTHING YOU WANT TO SAY?:

PS. To all of you who filled out your form and are currently in the community I apologize for the constant reminder for those applying.

NEWBIE ALERT!!!

  • Jan. 30th, 2008 at 1:24 AM

Hi all.

first of all let me say that i hope you are all keeping well.  im new to this and was just looking for some support.  im not like most of you - im grotesquely (??? spelling) overweight, id say i border on the obese side, but im slowly changing that ... i will be thin again.  ive been EDNOS for about 10+ years although i havent been to the docs for a diagnosis (i dont want them interfering).  I should say im overweight due to having a baby and i reached a comfort zone for 2 years - i stuffed my fat face.  now for the past 4 months ive returned to my old habits of fasting, restricting and exercising and im determined to get my lovely hip bones showing once more.  im very good at fasting - i can last for 2 weeks and im proud of that while exercising for at least an hr a day.  Ill post my stats when im a little more comfortable but im hoping to make loads of new friends and to give anyone support and encouragement.  anyway if anyone wants to know anything more or just wants a chat - here i am.

hugs to you all x

SHIT!

  • Jan. 19th, 2008 at 3:36 PM

Brand New!!

  • Jan. 17th, 2008 at 6:14 PM

Hi All !!

I'm new to this site but I've read around it a few times and everyone here seems so determined to get to the weight they want to so I was very eager to join. I have for the last few months been resticting my calories to about 400 cals a day. I have lost about 25 lbs but still have another 20 to go. The last few weeks I have been finding it really difficult to shift any weight at all. I started to plateau and then my confidence went :( I need to get it back on track and lose the next 20 lbs in 2 months!!! Can it be done????

My stats are:

HW 180 lbs
CW 156 lbs
LW 145 lbs

GW 1 135 lbs
GW 2 125 lbs

Thanks All !!

OKay soo  i wanna post pictures and I know how to cut, buttttttt i dont know which link to paste....?? http://...IMG...?? I uploaded them on photobucket...but its not working~~

Hm hm no good...

  • Jan. 13th, 2008 at 11:06 AM

Hey hey, 

How's everyone doing?
I hope you don't mind me posting...
Uhm well, this week I'm having so many tests at school and I have to studie like crazy this whole weekend, and I just can't!
I absolutely can't focus on my school stuff.. It feels like there's a war going on in my head, it's driving me crazy :'( 
I can't study, I'm crying all day long and I feel like screaming and yelling and cutting and stuff.
I had to study for like 8 hours yesterday, but I only studied 30 minutes because I felt so sad and panicked (is that a word?) and I cried like crazy all day long. It's not just the food stuff, but everything that's happening in my life and stuff, I'm losing control and I can't take it anymore...

How for gods sake can I FOCUS on my school stuff? I really have to because I have to graduate this year. 
I hope someone has got a great life-saving tip for me because this is not gonna work.

Sorry I don't want to sound pathetic or something but there's no one I can talk to about this stuff and it's driving me crazy..

xxxxxxxxx
 

Newbie in the house!!

  • Jan. 11th, 2008 at 9:57 PM
Hi everybody!

I'm new so I thought, let's introduce myself first :)
Well, I'm la_purete, I'm 19 and anorexic for like 6 years now. I've been hospitalized in an anorexia clinic once. 
I got out with a bmi 21.5, which I totally didn't like (as u can imagine) so I got back to bmi 20. When I lose more weight, I'll be sent back into that place... So I have to lose weight very very carefully and slowly, so that no one gets suspicious. That's why I came here: to find an ana buddy and to find/give a little support...

If anyone has got a question, just ask :)

Ana love, la_purete

Ps: my English isn't that good, but I'm trying :p

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  • Jan. 10th, 2008 at 3:40 PM
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-----> The form to be emailed to BOTH Cheri AND Katie....for membership request:
cheryl.hackett@gmail.com AND
catastrophic_feverx12@yahoo.com

DATE(MM/DD/YYYY):
LIVEJOURNAL NAME:
REAL NAME:
AGE:
LOCATION(WHERE YOU LIVE):
HEIGHT:

WEIGHT (IN LBS.):
HIGHEST WEIGHT (IN LBS.):
CURRENT WEIGHT (IN LBS.):
GOAL WEIGHT (IN LBS.):
LOWEST WEIGHT (IN LBS.):

ANA/MIA/BED?:
ARE YOU CLINICALLY DIAGNOSED OR SELF DIAGNOSED?
AIM CHATNAME:
HOW MUCH DO YOU EXERCISE?
DO YOU RESTRICT CALORIES?
DO YOU USE LAXATIVES?
DO YOU PURGE?
HOW LONG HAVE YOU HAD AN EATING DISORDER?

WHAT BENEFIT WOULD THIS COMMUNITY HAVE FOR YOU?
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH A MENTAL DISORDER/ILLNESS?
IF SO… WHAT?
ARE YOU LOOKING FOR A FAST WAY TO LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT?
HOW MUCH WEIGHT DO YOU THINK YOU NEED TO LOSE?

(the questions below are optional....but you get brownie points if you answer them!...)
COMMENTS?:
SUGGESTIONS?:
ANYTHING YOU WANT TO SAY?:

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hi

  • Jan. 8th, 2008 at 10:08 PM
hi people how is everyone??
just posting to say i use msn/and yahoo frequently and if your interested in talking to me - message me & i will give you my details and add you as a friend. :) i dont want people who arent suffering with eating disorders to annoy me with their ims who are only out to tell us were sick or something (tell us something we dont already know) if your life was more interesting you would save your preachy stuff to yourself and clean up your own back yard..i am here to support and help out with anything out thats what this community has done for me i have made some good friends from it. well lovelys talk soon?
ciao ciao xx
P.s i have forgot how to lock comments..
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to a new start for the new year....

  • Dec. 27th, 2007 at 1:41 PM
 wel its the 27th dec and i have survived christmas and boxin day without goin totally over board.. my weight stayed the same so im pleased about that...  iv started the ABC today and am very determined... i will start the new year weighin less than this year... i can do it coz i know iv got the help and support from all you guys..

good look to you all 

xxxx

back again

  • Dec. 20th, 2007 at 10:34 PM
so its taken me this long to convince my bf that im not anorexic

now im dreading christmas....i cant not eat in front of jays family....but i went to the gym for 4 hours today and burnt 2000 cals yesterday....iv'e been eating like crap tho i feel so terrible about myself and mexico is in like 32 days....i need a good month long program/diet....any ideas to spur my weight loss? 
freaking hell people,
im meant to be fasting!!!
i cant do it.
always something gets in the way.

im still aiming for 49kgs by the 26th
im 56 so far. eeks, thats cause i keep eating!!!!

ok.

hi

i hope everyone else is doing better.

holidays are tough

be strong all!!!

cuddles
nashping

gym tomorrow

  • Dec. 18th, 2007 at 1:03 AM
it's gonna happen, i can feel it! haha. im actually making myself go, and continue to do so for the rest of my break, i am hoping to lose 10 by new years, or when i get back to school. i know it's a longshot, but it should also be a bit easier since 1.) i am at such whale-ish proportions, 2.) i can purge again (no community dorm bathroom), and finally 3.) i dont feel as hungry as i did at school. ok well we'll see how tomorrow goes, i'm hoping i ca stick to my plan, cheers!
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    cranky
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hi people

  • Dec. 17th, 2007 at 4:59 PM
holla i am new to this
my highest weight has been 200 pounds (I WAS A WHALE!!) now my losest n current weight is 100 (still on the porky side)..
my goal is 94..im 5'7.. Is 94 to big? Im still undecided..

mwah x
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    indescribable
  • Current Music:THEIR VOICE lol

hey girls

  • Dec. 17th, 2007 at 6:27 PM
hi, i'm ashley and i'm new to the community. 
i'm 14 and heres my current stats:
 
height: 5'6"
hw:135
lw:110
cw:112
gw1: 110
gw2: 105

all i want is to be thin and happy, and i know you girls know what that feels like more then anyone i could talk to here in real life.

so im leaving for recovery sometime this week.
and once i get out, i hope to loose EVERYTHING plus more of what they put on me.
i dont think they realzie that by fattening me up they arent fixing anything? NOTHING. 
they're just making me more upset.
but i'm going to try recovery, and then when i get out lose to 105.

im really scared for recovery but know i can lose the weight when i get out.
how was everyone's day??

good for failing...

  • Dec. 17th, 2007 at 2:38 PM

been doin so well but then suddenly i decided to eat a piece carrot cake. as i ate it i felt so guilty and didnt really enjoy it, i felt like i was letting everyone down. when i finished it i sat down and could feel it sitting in my stomach, make feel so repulsive... so i went to the toilet and purged until i was totally empty, the back of my throat burns and i bring up blood... even though i hurt i feel better.. so much better for being empty.. the pain im in is punishment for failing yet again... thats all i seem good for these days... i should put that on my c.v. when people ask what im good at i should just say failing... thats something you can always count on me for...

anyway hope you are all having a better day than me...

<3   xxx

Dec. 15th, 2007

  • 10:52 PM
im craving a tea with milk and sugar.

:) sweet

how bout you? watcha craving?

bad habits! mother effer!

  • Dec. 14th, 2007 at 4:11 AM
ok so I have been home for all of less that 24 hours and have already resorted back to my old ways (purging) god yay me! NOT this is so friggin foul, I can't do thi especially so soon, I think it's because I finally have my ol bathroom back (aka, the only place i have ever felt ok doin that..) but it's still not okay, I just really don't understand myself honestly, I haven' even binged either because I finally am eating healthy hippie food again since I' home as opposed to the crap I eat at school so I actually get full..bah I don't eve know what;s going on, all I know is I finally feel like I have SOME control in my lif again (hallelujah!!!) so I'm gonna try and stick to that and start a regular workou regimine!!!!!!! wish me luck, my ginormous bottom is going to need it, it's been a lon time since the elliptical and my ass have had a proper date, my ass was starting t think the elliptical wasn't going to call.....(this is how bad it is, I even find my ow humor amusing..which it isn't..
balls and a half! workout and work tomorrow, then the giant shitshow that is my best friends getting home from school!!!
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    confused
  • Current Music:"Last Christmas"- Wham! (what is with me and the 80's music this week...

HI I'M NEW =]

  • Dec. 13th, 2007 at 5:42 PM
Height?: 5'6
Weight?: 108lbs
Lowest Weight?: 97lbs
Highest Weight?: 110lbs
What weight do you want to weigh?: 95lbs
What eating disorder do you have?: ana and bulimia
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: depends on the day but usually no more than 1000 unless i binge....=/
Do you throw up your food on occasion?: yes
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: yeahh especially cause i got scouted for modeling and i feel like when i go for my next meeting i will be too fat
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?:cross country but i am taking a break and working out on my own everyday
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?:yeah when i was younger i was really chub. ppl didn't say things then but they mention it now and then call me too skinny but it makes me hate myself more when they remind me and i feel like i am fat again
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: 3 days
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: no
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: some
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: no thank god but they made me go to a therapist and answer these questions, but i played the right cards and she told thme i wasn't
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: no but i would! never heard of it before now
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: well the bulimia yes but not the ano
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: ahahah ummm yeah but i usually don't ask others because they say it without me asking and i don't want them to go on and and on if i do ask
What part of your body would you change?: Thighs and stomach
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: 1.5
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: Yes
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?:that and other things. i can't remember which came first
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: Yeah i know that if they can do it, you can do it, and i can do it
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?:lately no but last year i was AMAZING
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: no, I judge by calories and fat but should i?
Fat grams?: .....
Calories?: Calorie counting is what i do
Are you often tired/fatigued?: depends what day you ask not when i drink too much coffee and take vitamins
Do you feel more energised after eating food?: no I feel gross and depressed
Do you eat meat?: no i am a vegetarian
Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc? no
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: a few have
Have you ever thrown up blood?: yeahh lol every time that is why i am trying to stop
Is your heart bpm above 49?: yeah i think so
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: not so far...
Other Stuff
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: when american youth looks like they do, who gives a fuck who's fault it is
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?:depends on the person
Do you have any other mental disorders? ie Bipolar, BDD, etc.: BDD and depression sometimes other tiems i am wayy happy
What's your favourite food to eat?: when i am eating, ginger granola
Favourite drink?: water omg water water water it's all i drink besides a little coffee or diet coke
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: no then i would be fat
Do you want to recover?: not particularly as long as when i am alive i am beautiful and have fun , beautiful meaning skinny=er

Hello Everyone <3

  • Dec. 13th, 2007 at 12:05 AM
It's nice to see this community finally up and moving!!! My name is Merna and i'll be another Maint. here <3
Feel free to email me with any problems or concerns at bloodstainedlips666@gmail.com Leave your screen name and let me know your from this community on the subject line so that you don't get mixed in with spam. Heres to a successful year of weighloss, eh????!

Dec. 13th, 2007

  • 12:03 AM
so hi hello there peeps.

i was beyond bad today...like to the moon and back bad. so yeh if u want to feel better bout yourself i recommend i read of my 'todays consumption'. funnny...not... and believe me ive had my cry about it...but here now...cant be doin that al evening...


so ive decided to do something inspiring  and motivational instead of feeling crap and low and ..yeh neway...

im gona post a pic of myself taken on the 26th of this month. thats my goal date for being 49kgs and im gona try to get as close as i can to it by then. but i wont get newhere near it if i keep eating as if my life depended on it. so seeing as now im like 60 or something i dunno nemore....im not gona be a happy camper on the 26th if im still the same weight. so hey.

im good. you good?

hahaha

be happy ppl. im trying.... look...  8) see?


nashping
this is gona be a quick post,

hello!!!!

well basically, ive wasted yet another day doing fook all....well i dunno, looking for new thinspos, hours ppl, HOURS...i mean i would never guess that im meant to be studying for exams. grr.

i mean im working more than i should. i mean no1 else i know is working and studying for finals, well i guess they have lives that take time outta study, i mean i dont go out or do fun stuffs so... yeh im fine with wat i work....man alive im a complaintor!!!!


ok well, basically, ive had this problem....i live at home.....not a normal home.....a home where my sister knows about the ED and knows about the purging and the binging....she makes me feel like a fat cow the way she loooks at me....thing is she genuinely doesnt mean it like that, i think she just thinks ill stop if she does that. but it actually stresses her out...she worrryies...i worry.....she locks herself in the bathroom to stop me from going to purge!!!! .....

then dad is a health freak...gotta eat protein...gotta eat veg....gotta eat carbs.....and the likes.....gotta be home for the sit down dinner (at least its always super healthy food) nehow.

NEHOW
from today yeh so this evening...im gonna say i had a big lunch that ill eat dinner later...he wont like it but...seriously...i gotta stop purging...its scaring me....i mean....its not worth it...not eating...its just better than putting my body through the trauma of purging.

yup...its gotta be done....

done and done....

gotta be 49kgs by xmas

its the only way....

i feel so full, i did have a big lunch...salad...but still..i feel so sick.....no eating dinner....yup. thats it....

gotta do wok now.

hope everyone is doing well...

much hugs.

SS-TT

Nashping
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    full
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Okay! New thinspo post in Thinspo_Queen

  • Dec. 10th, 2007 at 11:45 PM
I finally got around to doing it, I promise I'll do more soon, I'll start looking tonight......... if you aren't a member of that room, go to the User Info page and join that room to see the posts, theres no application... okay talk to everyone later!

http://community.livejournal.com/thinspo_queen/

To Join:  http://community.livejournal.com/thinspo_queen/profile

but of a downer im afaid...

  • Dec. 10th, 2007 at 10:44 AM

hi all... 
feelin so low today, got a killing headache and just feel really crap...
i dont know what to do for the best anymore...
i hate my body, especially my stomach because iv had 3 kids by c-sections not that it is an excuse.
i just want to get a knife AND CUT IT ALL OFF.

sorry this has been such a down post but i dont know who else to talk to...

thanks

xxx

Hi

  • Dec. 9th, 2007 at 11:55 PM
Hi Im new to this community! I am here for help and support ^.^ I also need some new ana buddies that i can compete with lol
Thlk to me some time
TTFN
Candice = D
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been gone a while but im back now.

eek so basically, ive not been well. i dont wana  bitch and moan but yeh, not good.

ive started going to this special holistic therapist which is 2hrs from my home and therapist dude thinks it would be beneficial if my boyf would also attend (some of the time). so on my second session i went with boyf, was scary, weird, he was all quiet, HES NOT QUIET!!! nehow, going again today with boyf, for therapy dude, to do history takings. fun times.

im just gona say it....i dont know if anyone here knows anything about Viginismus but i didnt either a few months ago. so yeh..i got that.... and it aint fun, quite depressing on top of everything else. thats wat this new therapist dude is all about and thats why my boyf is gona come too sometimes.

nehow, and my thesis... college work has been all lab work.... 8am to 9pm!!! yeh cause im behind bcause my fecking cells dont grow fast enuff!!! im two weeks behind everone!!!
and ive got work!!! and i get in trouble on thurs with work cause im always late (cause of the lab)!!!! grr!!!!
i gotta socialise at least once a week(ppl get snappy), i gotta  study for xmas exams, i gotta spend time with the boyf(snappy again).
i dot have time for the internet.
i never have time to do wat i love....nothing. :(

AND THE MAJOR THING IS  THAT BECAUSE IM  NEVER AT HOME ANYMORE, IM ALWAYS AT COLLEGE OR WORK, PPL ALWAYS AROUND ME, AND THE STRESS THAT FOOD CAUSES IS SHOCKING, EATING SO MUCH. IVE BEEN WORKING IN OASIS SINCE JULY AND THEY'RE ALREADY ASKING ME WHY I NEVER EAT AT WORK!!!    no joke but all those girls are amazing inspirational, and they're all so healthy in mind and body. makes me feel shit. they're so skinny and hot, and smart, and friendly. but seriously its crazy, they work from break to break. and breaks mean FOOD. so a lot of the talk is about: how many mins or hours to the nxt break; where they're gonna run to, to get it; wat theyre gonna get; how hungry they are. oh lord, too much!!


basically i feel like im gona snap, and ive been eating like a heffer wit all the stress im under.

today i have an xmas party to go to at my boyf house, a load of college mates are going and we all gotta bring a food dish. ive been told to make my potato bake. ah grr, its a food party. they better get merry quickly then they wont notice my lack of appetite. bad thing is, each dish is gona be specially made by one of my mates. they're gona be at me, asking, so did u try it? do u like it?, you havint tried it, try it now, here!!! oh lord.

so today is gona be actio packed, this is the onl time i got to study but screw it, i need to vent. i gotta get my ass in gear and start trekkin to this councellor dude, back by 6ish. i know!!! is two hrs over, two hrs back, two hr session. then i gotta get fod supplies to make this potato bake. then trek over to the party, and try my best to get in the spirit.

on sat is my work xmas party. depressin cause evry1 is gona look amazing, there actually will be comps for the best dressed. an i wanted to be 49kgs by then. im 60kgs. just makes me want to cry.
but i got a lovely Lipsy Londo dress, i look good innit. but hey but im not happy with my weight so....yeh neway


gotta go. love to all

toodles.

nashping



im stressing too much, it probably wont be like that.
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    anxious
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fabulous turn-around

  • Dec. 4th, 2007 at 4:50 AM

i've just finished my colon cleanse after my sunday night binge. now i'm 2lbs below what i started at on saturday (plus the 1/2 or 1lb i gained on saturday). Kudos. Yee haw. Big smiles.

binged

  • Dec. 2nd, 2007 at 10:03 PM
i'm one of those tragic anorexics who loves to cook. today i made traditional ukrainian kutya and ate probably 300-400 calories of it. not that i'd eaten the rest of the day, but i'm used to no more than 100 calories in a day and i feel horrible. hopefully, this will boost my metab for a while or something. i just took some 'colon cleanse pills' those usually kick in after two days, i'll take some more in the morning. i hope i can get through with this before tuesday, i'm going in for an eating diorder eval. at some clinic my therapist suggested to my mom. somebody please give me some motivation to work out tomorrow and NOT eat.

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  • Dec. 2nd, 2007 at 11:11 AM
so i have been gone for a long time for a number of reasons. 

Firstly our laptop crashed but lucky my gramma just gave us a new computer!

 Also i was walking the dog with my boyfreiend and i know hes not stupid i knew it was a matter of time before he ased me or more like accused me but i still wasnt fully ready for it. He starts saying all these things like u dont eat and you're anorexic i know it for a fact and then i asked him how he knew and he said he read my live journal. He was worried and he thinks im gonna die but he's just overreacting.

oh well on the plus sde i can write on here without hidiing it from him


If you're reading this I love u babe but stay out of my personal thoughts!

 Also im determined to not eat anythng untill dec 8 starting yesterday so like a week.
But i might onlywork out every other day!

ugh

  • Nov. 25th, 2007 at 5:22 PM
I had...a caser side salad from wendys and put nugget pieces and croutons on it. and ihad some fries....i also had alittle bit of chex mix turtle flavor. i really need to go back to cal counting! (lol) really...

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ecouragement to you all ladies!
~Mirror

Hey everyone

  • Nov. 16th, 2007 at 8:39 PM

I'm new to this community, and I hope to get to know you all better soon..
My name's Louise, I live in the UK, anyone else? I'm 16.

Errm, my stats are
CW-123
GW-106 (for now)
HW-130
LW-120 (pathetic?!)
I'm five ft six..

I don't really know what else to say right now. I just really hope I can be a friend to you all and try and give you support and help me too :-)

X

looking up

  • Nov. 16th, 2007 at 12:18 AM
things are starting to look up...i had 40 cals today and burnt 700

new motivation

  • Nov. 14th, 2007 at 10:39 AM
so i now need to lose 15 lbs....my boyfriends parents bought us a trip to the Myan Riviera in january!

i need a bikini body so bad 
 Omg i swear my bfs mom is trying to fatten me up! LOL

no shes just a really sweet mom who loves to send her babies home with chocolate bars....fudge and christmas cookies....im going crazy in my house....oh they got us like a 2 lb bag of M&Ms too.....i dont want to eat it but knowing its there....

i may have to go get some dexadryn

depressed

  • Nov. 13th, 2007 at 10:44 AM

i really hate myself...not just my body but everything. i dont kno wat to do anymore

jamies going away for 3 days so i finally have a chance to fast and flush

i lost 5 lbs

Any Good Fat Burning Exercises?

  • Nov. 10th, 2007 at 9:50 PM
If you know any good fat burning exercises feel free to fill me in =)

I took one of those Mega-T things today. I'm hopeful that this will help. The energy boost it gives is almost instant, which was great.

SO GLAD TO BE BACK

  • Nov. 8th, 2007 at 7:07 PM
 i havent posted in forever...i accidentally left my LJ page up and my brother saw all this stuff and tried to rat me out to my mom so i had to delete all my journals so i could show her my thingy and make it seem like it was nothin bad....so i have so updates

I joined a gym down my street
i go everyday and burn 800-1000 calories
i lost 10 lbs



CW-118
GW-110
HW-128
LW-110
  • Current Location:jamies place
  • Current Mood: 👁 cheerful
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  • Current Music:elderly woman behind the counter in a small town-pearl jam

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  • Nov. 8th, 2007 at 9:56 PM
im new here so i thought id introduce myself..
im 15 had bulimia for about 1and half yrs  on and off  and it stopped..friends found out made me eat properly keep things digested they changed me! this year i had an operation and was off my feet alot and though oh dear i need to change my body ive been lazing around for 6 months ive got to lose this weight  i had put on.
i tryed a 30 day fast but theres a problem.. all i do is binge i hate it it makes me purge!! but i dont like purging so i try not to binge but i CANT HELP IT.

Height: 5'6 / 5'5
Weight: 119 lbs
Goal weight: 110
Goal weight (2) : 100
if ANYONE could help me it would be great .. any ways to STOP binging?

(: xxx

Hey

  • Nov. 8th, 2007 at 9:39 PM
Hey I'm new in this community.
My current stats are:
LW-118
HW-130
CW-124
GW-106

How long do you think it'll take to do this? I've just had a huge binge and feel so rubbish and stupid :-(

I'm Louise by the way. I hope you're all alright X

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